"Everything you can imagine is real."-Picasso

Ahhh, it feels so good to be here again.

Man, I am trying to type here, while listening to some singing monks, its making me all goofy-ish. giggle

Anyways..I started up morning pages again and gosh, every time I do them I instantly am connected to higher self.

It's a beautiful thing.

When you take time to listen/write it is amazing the wisdom and encouragement that appears. 

I am encroaching upon a magical period in my life. 

Almost done with classes which means...

Time to really settle into the final stages of

"She Spreads Love"

I have wanted to write a Children's book forever now.

Some may ask, why now, why haven't you done it before?

Divine timing...

Some may call it lack of focus or procrastination, I strongly believe that everything has its time and some things need to marinate in life force. I began my desire to write a children's book back in 1993.

Just out of High School. 

I was a dabbler in illustrating here and there, non-sense spiritual sketching, beautiful colors, learning....

I did not go to school for art but I have a strong passion for it.

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In 1995 I began sketching some illustrations, inspired by Dr. Seuss's ABC book, and at that time I thought "I could make a pretty cool alphabet book too. Children would love to read my book with their mom and dad."

Although my illustrations were "cute" the inspiration wasn't there.

Time went on and I had this other vision, which I never did because I wasn't the "stand up in front of a crowd and speak" kind of person..but anyways...the idea was along the line of this...

I thought it would be cool for there to be an assembly that would travel from school to school to teach the value of authenticity and help to prevent bullying and peer pressure.

AND strangely it wasn't until this VERY moment that I came up with that way of describing it. 

Oh man I am starting to tear up because this is a beautiful moment to me, how things just fall into place. 

The vision for the assembly generically went along these sort of lines..

I envisioned someone coming out on stage dressed up very "dorkly", fat, acne, unfashionable, in a greater sense unappealing to the eye, but totally believable.

This person would come on stage and start talking about bullying, peer pressure, following your heart, doing what is right, etc..I wanted to see how the audience would react to the knowledge that this unappealing person shared with them. 

Then I wanted to show a video, one of that person, removing their costume and revealing the person on the inside.

I wanted to see how the audience would react now to the information that was shared with them. Then the person would come back out on stage, without the costume and talk with the children about their thoughts and feelings on it all. 

The whole purpose of the assembly being, that everyone is beautiful on the inside and that making fun of people for how they look, what they love to do, putting people down for
 being themselves is breaking us apart.

Each one of us is a miracle, and each one of us should be able to shine how we want to, and when we do, we light up the world. 

When we are our true authentic selves, I believe we are the change we want to see in the world. We are all pieces of the puzzle of life. 

Because I believe that within, all we want is love, peace and joy.

And by being ourselves, we encourage others to be themselves.

Doing what we feel within our hearts, doing what feels good, I believe is being in alignment with the whole.

I am not being naive here, I know there are sick people in this world, mean people, but if I can make a difference even if in a little way, then I am following my heart and doing so, because 
it is what I believe to be true.

And that is me being authentic. 
Open to being vulnerable by speaking of what I believe in, 
Because I believe this to be true.  
And in no way can my truth hurt anyone because all that 

I desire to see is good :)
And I want to set this positive example for our children.
onwards..

I had children, married for 12 years, started a business, did art shows, tried to make ends meet and get ahead of the game.
Got divorced, giggle, married again...

Had two more children, crazy me, giggle,  
and now I know what I need to do. I have gathered information, learned a lot! "It's not easy being cheesy" but I'm gonna be do it.."I am what I am" and I am love :)

I have this tingling desire within me that I am here to make a difference. I am here to use my gifts, as simplistic and "dreamy" as they may be, to spread peace, love, encouragement, joy and the value of authenticity in this world.
And so..here I am. Now realizing that my desire to make a children's book isn't about teaching the ABC's, there are plenty of those. 

It's about teaching love, its about (and please, I am NOT a preacher or promoting any sort of religion here) bringing a sense of spirituality

back into this fast paced world. Teaching love, kindness, the value of authenticity, encouragement, community, joy, through simple phrases of positivity and artwork that makes you smile and feel good :)
I can't wait to share my book with you and the world!

 Peace and love
Natalie Kelsey-Pixy Pocahontis

Whats going on :)

Hello all!

I know its been a while since my last babble..

I hope you are all doing fantastic!

I know, I know, we are all on a roller coaster..

I'm on a good ride.

I have decided to put the boys in daycare, go back 

to school, and do what I love.

Don't get me wrong, I love being a mom, but MAN I was getting restless..

Passion is something I just can't do without.

So.. I have found a lovely balance.

(still working out little twerks)

  I'm learning some new things to propel me 

to where I want to be through school.

Not that I am not grateful for the here and now, 

but I keep seeming to get myself

stuck in little areas and I wasn't growing how I wanted.

And school was the solution. 

I just had to bite the bullet and put the boys in daycare.

It was a hard decision because I 

really felt guilty doing it at first..

Then I was like...shit why I didn't I do this earlier? 

giggle

I love our boys, but again I had to love myself too.

They are happy, enjoying playing with others, and are very happy to see me or daddy at the end of the day.

And...

 I really feel like our quality time together is greater now

:)
WE are currently in the middle of an exterior remodel that began in June...this is where we are now...

I have high hope that the siding crew is REALLY going to finish this time. (many complications)
But its going to look awesome after its all finished, especially when we get all the trim and brick painted! 

I also painted our fireplace, it was burgundy paint from the previous owners..The living room is still in a process as well but baby steps...

What classes am I taking?

Illustrator, HTML5 and Office.

All VERY helpful!

After the completion of these classes in December,

 I begin my journey on the completion of my book with goal of it being on its publishing adventure in July!

AND..

Next year I start a massage program.

So exciting!

Life is excellent and I couldn't be more grateful

:)

There is more to this picture...

Oh and here is a glimpse of my class final project for HTML5.

It's the home page for my website

SO EXCITING!

ALSO...

Currently I'm helping a friend launch her fantastical

creation...

St. Anthony - finder of love..please..

take a peek at it here..
Gotta run, boys are up from a nap!

Much LOVE to you all

Natalie

Backpack on, Candle lit, Traveling within..Trust the Process

I know that many of you may see me as the Positive, bubbly type, encourager of the heart, spreading wellness, artist girl and

 I am, 

the deepest most purpose part of who I am, is that.

and I am trying with all my heart,

to swim in that love...

to spread that love...

but man,

 somethings in the air,

Art journaling inside a Kelly Rae Robert Journal

 and the wind, she is not consistent..

Has anyone else felt it ?

 Strong blows rattle heart...

and lofts one off to dark places...

Places ye pray not to be.

the wind is cold,

Deep breaths to find center...

A Excerpt from A Return to Love

focuses on its light,

to warm back the heart...

and dance,

in knowing.. 

that love is the key

that opens the door

                                    

 to brighter places.

Focus on What you want

Peace,  joy and much love.

Natalie

Sharer of all things Positive..

This is a long one:) 

Hope you decide to stay.

I haven't been here in a while.

My life has been rocked...

rainbow rocks, baby rocks, teenager rocks, relationship rocks, and I am the cement...but really, REALLY its  Joyously hard to keep the wall together. 

But gosh Darn, I am a fighter for love dammit! I want to balance the love, EVERYWHERE...

but the energy of it all makes me want to balance my time here...in art..my drug..

IT's SO overwhelming, like being in a tornado..

Time flies sooo FAST and 

its sooo hard sometimes, to keep sane.

My brain just will not quit. it just races with the energy around me.

The inspirations sometimes are ceaseless..

I AM grateful and...

I want to be here now,  but shit..

I got creations, visions, ideas coming out my every orifice.. :) 

Tornados really send things flying :)

Ideas come out when my two year old is screaming-irritated, I guess to take me away from the piercing dragon sounds that come out of his mouth...

I have gotten the most crazy awesome pictures in my head when making love with my husband..and at the same time I'm thinking, be here now, be here now ;) because our intimacy is so beautiful and meaningful to me

Ideas also come out while doing menial chores, because one,I have already mastered this shit and want to focus on something new...and two, I am the house servant, yes I am, and dammit, the ideas/pictures/creations are like "calgon take me away"..Giggle

I'm not really the house servant, I'm just being Drama :)

I am SO SO grateful for my life..

I have recently be reunited with 

Deep Breaths...

In the tornado shallow breathing occurs...

Ideas... non-stop in the car, I see inspiration constantly from everything around me. 

Deep breaths too... are rejuvenating 

AND

can be done at ANY time...

center

While I love it so much here and want to teach love the best that I can (still learning, always learning), 

I want to create the inspirations, every one of them, and there is soooo many..

I also want to just be a kid and create.

It is so rejuvenating...creation energy

Rebuilds damage from tornados..

But man....Little Kai, he is a beautiful star..something about those eyes...I can get lost in them.

And Indie, that little lover is is our in-house physical exercise machine...

I gotta get my run back in shape..

I've had a pinch in my butt muscle since Kai was born and I need to sprint to catch Indie,

that kid is SERIOUSLY lightening, but sprinting after him is a severe pain in the ass, literally.

:)

But all of the above leads to what is written below...a piece written for our family.

AND

I have come to the realization that upon listing my values 

an abundance of love is all we really need, :) 

What goes around comes around...

anyways....

A way that I hope will help teach our household run smoother..

Infinite Integrity

Being gentle to one's self...

Being kind to your neighbor and helping one another is what makes the world go around.

Peace love and kindness at the very basic level.

This is what I wrote for our family.

But also thought it could be very beneficial to many families

So I had to share the

LOVE

and know...I may ramble at times, a little off path, but my message is always the same..

Your heart is your compass....follow it :)

"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."

Ralph Waldo Emerson

    Hello ... 

You may want a piece of paper and your favorite pen :)

(I love you Kai)

I am a mother, lover, friend, artist, optimist and inspirer...especially of things involving the heart.

(I love you Lukas)

I am writing today because I care deeply for you, for all of us, and I would like to share some very valuable information/thoughts that hopefully you carry in your heart, throughout the journey, that is, your life, our life. 

With this information you can be socially responsible, living a life of integrity and happiness.

Together we can turn this world around and it all begins with you!

(I love you Indie)

Don’t ever think that you can’t make a difference in this world, because YOU can... Every action, word, bit of energy you put out into the Universe counts.

 We are all one. 

No act of kindness, no matter how small is ever wasted...-Aesop

I don’t know how many of you go to Church or partake in some sort of religious organization, I don’t really know of that genre’s curriculum, But I believe that in the core of every religion/spirituality/being, is the encouragement of love~

The encouragement of being kind and loving to your neighbor~

Because it is that very foundation that can change the world. 

One may argue and say that living a life in this manner is just so boring...

There is no drama...

Well, what is so boring about feeling good?

(I LOVE YOU Jordan)

What is SO boring about doing things that can make a positive difference in this world?

What is so boring about helping other people feel good?

If it is boring to you then maybe you could ask yourself why am I not wanting to live in a world of peace and happiness.

Am I just not happy with myself therefore living in chaos makes me feel better?

IT’s just not healthy, not for you, not for me, not for US...

but who knows, maybe some thrive on diversity...

we just don't know, 

but in my heart it is only the diversity of positive and positive

that keeps things positive.

And science has shown that there is a difference in the frequency of things so....

“Be the change you wish to see in the world”-Gandhi

“If you do your best, always, over and over again, you will become a master of transformation.”-Miguel Ruiz

Now, I would like to focus on what it means to live a life of integrity. 

What is integrity? 

”I will start off by saying that Integrity is a choice, not an obligation.  

(giggle, xo)

By leading a life of honesty/truthfulness and consistency of actions one leads a life virtuous in nature.  Living a life of integrity involves core values such as compassion, dependability, generosity, honesty, kindness, loyalty, maturity, objectivity (the ability to judge fairly without bias or external influences), respect, trust and wisdom. 

By leading a life of integrity one can rest assured that they will have a happy conscience.

“A man is but the product of his thoughts what he thinks, he becomes.-Gandhi

When we are acting with integrity, we do what is right, even when no one is watching...

Self-respect is the cornerstone of all virtue.  ~John Herschel

If you want to be respected by others the great thing is to respect yourself.  Only by that, only by self-respect will you compel others to respect you.  ~Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Who ever is careless with the truth in small matters cannot be trusted with important matters-Albert Einstein 

A man who doesn't trust himself can never really trust anyone else.  ~Cardinal De Retz

You may all be well on your way already living a life of integrity. But today in this society of technology, this fast paced world, one can fly so quickly that one can lose touch with reality and what is really valuable to us.

We can get all wrapped up in “Peer-land”, who’s has what, who has the nicest car, clothes, house, looks, etc...then one becomes floating in the heir of ego.... then...

Jealousy and competitiveness creeps in and  “Poof!” integrity gets thrown by the wayside. 

So many people put others on a pedestals of high admiration, because they are “smart”, they look “pretty”, “charming”, are “great” at sports, they have “money”, “popular”, well educated etc...but none of that truly makes a difference in this world if you are not living through your heart.

Sometimes people are put on pedestals because they are truly virtuous in nature and may have all of the attributes listed above, but by setting examples of integrity I believe that it is these people who are dedicated to making positive changes in the world. By being kind, helping one another, smiling genuinely, really caring about the world around them, this is someone virtuous in nature.

The truth is we should all be putting ourselves on pedestals, we should all be valuing ourselves just as much as each other.

How can one truly value another if they cannot value themselves?

This is where self respect is soooo important.

How can you love another if you can’t love yourself?

By not respecting yourself, putting yourself down, calling yourself ugly, stupid, etc.. that energy is not acting with integrity. 

Stand tall Molly Lou Melon! You are beautiful just the way you are! 

It is you who is a piece of the puzzle and without you the picture would not be complete :)

But still...there is anger, hatred, jealousy out there...and it’s so old...passed down from generations and layered upon. 

It’s time to let this GO!

How can one fly with a heavy backpack? How can you fly through the sky full of black clouds and see where you are going? How can one see love in the dark? How can one feel love surrounded by murkiness? 

 It is up to us, each individually, whether or not we chose to make positive changes through our experiences on our journeys...

Do you desire to live in a world of love?

Together “WE” can make a difference.

Follow your heart...

Because it doesn’t matter who has the best, all that matters is that you are doing your best, and that is all you can do.

This does not mean we will not make mistakes... because again..if you do your best, that is all you can do...

It is when we LEARN from our mistakes that we grow.

Don’t fear mistakes...there are none...-Miles Davis

Living a life of integrity also means that you wish the BEST for all others and know in your heart that doing so, that love will also come back to you. Maybe not right when you/ego wants it but when the timing is right for the magic to happen...and it does. I have experienced this time and time again. I have also experienced the negative side as well and I choose not to be there anymore. 

I want to make a change for the positive in this world and if I choose to stick with Integrity I can do so...so here I am sharing this with you. 

I am not here to be a goody-two-shoes.. I am sharing this because I love you and I hope you love me too. Because without your magical self this world just wouldn’t be the same :)

You may have done this before... maybe not...But I have some questions for you:)

What are your morals? What do you believe to be good/positive for you. What do you live by/stand for?

What are your values? What do you find valuable in life? 

(Material and character)

Do any of your values conflict with the morals you live by?

What do you desire in life?

 What are your ideals? 

And...Can you, will you achieve your desires/ideals by the help of your values and holding true to your morals?

Can you give an example?

Are you living a life of integrity?

Where can you make some changes in life that can help to stay true to your morals and achieve your desires/ideals?

In this world of technology children younger and younger are exposed to various stimuli whether its:

-sexual

-violence

-hatered

and its made to seem ok. But is it really? After writing down and evaluating your morals are these things good for the whole? Are these ways of being adding up to a life of integrity?

I am not perfect, I have not always lived by my values/morals, but if, when I was younger, If it were recommended to me to list my morals and values and see what really is important to me, what could really make a difference in this world, I really think  would have done some things differently in life. I would have started living a life of integrity a lot earlier, been a lot happier AND through less strife. In this fast paced world we live in where money seems to rule, bills to pay, and struggling to get by seems to be a household norm, I believe. 

Much time gets lost to keeping up with all these material things and teaching of the heart goes by the wayside.

Not for all families, but many. 

Parents are off working while children are left to televisions, computers and peers for guidance and supervision. 

What is available to us all these days via internet and television is not discreet and this lack of censorship has added to this society of competitiveness in every genre.

I am not asking for perfection, I am asking you to always do your best, doing your best meaning, living by your own values and morals.