Friday, June 10, 2011


I love the connection we all can find in people we meet or have just seen and read about. All the things we learn from each other, helping us on our way, encouraging our freedom even further.

So many of us have been molded (not always purposely) into someone we are not, and we find ourselves fighting against this energy that is not our own, even sometimes thinking there is something wrong with us..WHEN in actuality it's just our insides tugging at us, letting us know that maybe something isn't right, some part that was "given" to us that doesn't fit into our journey.
Hope this makes sense.
I used to get angry really easy, pissed off, especially when certain people did things that just weren't nice. It was there lack of niceness in handling situations that just set me off and you know what?
That didn't make me any better than the person who was being mean..It just added to it.
I have ALWAYS been sensitive to any kind of meanness, picking on, bullying, etc. and yet when I was little I can admit that there were times that I picked on people, usually because they, again, pissed me off or I felt threatened.

I did NOT learn the best coping skills other than if someone pushes you around enough then you should stick up for yourself and push back and give them a bit of their own medicine.
No! No! No!
Every time I ever experienced any type of confrontation I ALWAYS felt horrible afterwards. "Why did happen?" I asked myself..

This is not want I want, all I want is to be surrounded by people I could play with and loved, but yet it didn't always work that way.
Our home life can have the hugest impact on who we are.

I am very grateful for the little voice that shined through the negativity that at times surrounded my life, reminding me of who I am (not always with the best detail, lol, but a lot of love and joy)
Always wanting to see the best in people and situations which at

times was confronted with someone only seeing the negative and reminding me of that, planting seeds that I really didn't want to grow. Then followed by comments like "you gotta watch your back, you can't trust people, your being naive.
I felt so conflicted! What the fuck, I just wanna have fun, love people, grow, create the life I want. I don't want to focus on all that other shit..
I met some really great people in high school that totally made a difference in my life. My ex-boyfriend Matt, who was very intelligent, sporty, focused, encouraging and a loving soul. His parents were very good people and raised great young men.
Matt, helped me tremendously in High School. I looked up to his achievements and it sparked something inside me to try harder in school and love myself. He is/was a truly kind person and am Very grateful to have met him.

(I made this for my honey Sekou, I love you babe!)
Reminds me of that poem that went around the internet a while back, heck may still be traveling it for all I know, because its a good one..The one that pertains to "there are some people you meet in life and are friends for a season...Some for a lifetime..etc..know that one? Anyways..I totally click with it.
Alex, he sparked my spirituality curiosities which through my desire to learn more through Matt lead me on that adventure and I have been there ever since. Bridgett, she is/was my total "dreamer/inventor/encouraging/giggle buddy..

Wendy, "Mom", she nurtured me, calmed me and we had A LOT of fun adventures and laughs.
Kim, it was through seeing how she used her creativity to support herself, through following her heart, that lead me to doing the same, and we too had a lot of laughs.
And now...the Universe has lead me to so many wonderful new and positive people in my life, people of like mind.
All because I am following my heart!

I feel at home in their positivity.
Sekou, Genie, Julie, LOVE you!
I am grateful.
PS. Please check out Kelly Rae Roberts latest post...It's a good inspiring one, well they all are but I really liked this one :)

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

What Does your Heart Say?

First I'd like to wish a Happy Birthday to my two oldest children..
Luke who just turned 16, oh my, and Ava who turned 14.
I love you both sooo much and wish you the best in all your life adventures. I am here for you always..Love Love Love and hugs!
My heart says I am totally grateful..
I know I repeat this phrase often but I find it to be of the utmost necessity to give thanks for all that that surrounds me and all that I am :)
I am surrounded by such wonderful friends and family that it makes me want to explode with hearty glitter sparkles.
Indie is growing so fast and every moment with him I am in awe of his spirit, being here with us.
I kiss him up, lots of sniffing his yummy baby scent..
He's beginning to mimic basic words we say and can babble up such a story.
Everyday I try to focus on our children understanding why we "work" (for me it feels like play). That they understand that we are following our passions and being loving parents too.
If I don't focus on that thought, sometimes my mind can wander to feeling like I am choosing to make art/run a business over being a parent and that I should just be with them.

It is my desire to keep the balance.
Lately I have been thinking more about community.
How can I be involved yet keeping to what I love to do, because that is when the energy I give the strongest, most beneficial.

I was thinking of going around the neighborhood, introducing myself (I know some of my neighbors names but...we all have our separate lives) Thinking of giving one of my business cards to each of them and letting them know that if there is anyway I can be of

service, as part of our community, using the skills that come from following my heart, to please call me..I would love to help :)
If I can make art and donate pieces to help raise money for specific events and such...If I can do some gardening for our neighborhood (love to dig, rake, wheelbarrow, plant flowers)
Design a logo or such for not for profits and so on and so forth.
I would like to be of service doing what I love.
I think it sets a great example for our children.

Sidetrack..My Iphone was out of commission last week, got it back Friday the third, Ava's birthday :)
Anyways..the day the screen froze on it (white screen of death) the phone for some reason took a picture of the last way the screen looked, exactly with time and date that it failed..
Peculiar...I was messaged by the loving voice in my space, to look up the numbers in the Angel Number book by Doreen Virtue..
time 8:46 5/29/2011
8) Abundance and prosperity..Infinite flow of money time ideas or whatever else you require (especially for your life purpose)
46) The angels are saying to you: "keep your thoughts focused upon your spiritual self and your divine source for everything. Give any material worries to us"
5)A significant change is occurring, always for the better. It's a good idea to call upon heaven for help with life changes. :)
29) Stay positive about your life purpose, put all your focus on being of service, utilizing your natural talents, passions and interests. Doors are opening for you..Just keep your faith strong.
2011) Your connection with the creator is strong and clear. Fill your heart and mind with faith, stay positive, your thoughts are materializing rapidly...Focus only on the good within yourself, others, and the present.
If you ever find yourself seeing a repetitive number, or a number that just makes you think hmmm...The Angel numbers book is a fun, loving tool to have.
Ooooo and I got my new tent. I Love it!! Can't wait to fill it with creations!!!
I got this lovely tent through Flourish
and I couldn't be happier with their service AND products.
Their customer service it EXCELLENT!
They even sent me this amazingly helpful book "Art Festival Guide" written by Artist Maria Arango
The book is an extremely useful guide,
"A book for all brave Artist's who embark on the treacherous and most wonderful adventure of selling their art in art festivals and generally to the public"
Thank you Luke, for including that in my order..It is greatly appreciated :)

have a great day all and hugs..Pass it on :)