Waiting for the Sunshine and Spring Flowers to Bloom

Man these days are flying fast..So many things I am trying to accomplish, So many things in my head.

Om Mani Padme hum

Been journaling a lot lately..Trying to get the blahs OUT..Flip can the sun melt this snow and bring back the color or what?

I just feel like such a downer, I don't even know what to say, just I look t the screen and giggle like duh. 

Still trying to sell this flipping extra house of ours...It still sits there, lol. 

BLAH

BUT...All is well..

I have a lot to be grateful for :)

Art is great, kids are healthy, beautiful home that we live in, a studio in the basement, part time job to supplement my expansion.

I am TOTALLY looking forward to going to Surtex in May to check it out!!!!! It is my desire to show there next year..I've got big plans, maybe too many? lol

I've got some HUGE decisions to make. 

Currently I am working on random art projects, illustrating my children's book (which I plan to have ready to be published in June/July) social media shouting, St. Anthony Project and selling this darn house. 

IT is my plan to go to massage school next fall, but Surtex, SURTEX is calling me too..And from what I've read from this excellent helpful book Jump Trust Repeat  by Jessica Swift, (which I highly recommend to you artist out there) It takes a lot of work and planning and moola :) Another book I recommend to artist is on my side bar...Flying lessons, by Kelly Rae Roberts, also an EXCELLENT read :) 

Gotta focus on the present and see where the Journey takes me right? I have HUGE plans for a collection of stuff to go with my children's book, a lot of which could be fantastically promoted at Surtex so massage school MAY wait a little longer. 

I totally want to create fabric, wall paper, kids rain boots, Children's bedding, kids room art, journals, umbrella patterns, iPad covers and more. IT's huge, exciting and I want to make it happen. 

Well, gonna run...Got both my boys in bed, thank God, they were little crabby monkeys this evening and I want to create!

Peace to you all!

Friday Again??? :)

Man has the week flown by..

Although I am grateful for everyday I am going to be glad to start the week over next week

without...

The sickness..

Last night was rather moving to me..

I don't know about you but sometimes,

(usually when I am worn out or coming down with something)

my mind begins to go to a not so great place..

A place where I am not so nice to myself.

You should have gotten more done..

That's not good..

You're looking pretty old...

What if my husband isn't attracted to me anymore...

I'm not making much money anymore therefore I suck...

ETC...

All these thoughts can come rushing in..

Bombarding, mean, hurtful..

But what always amazes me is this

connection...

This beautiful connection I have with my husband

(and friends too)

that when I start feeling ick

somehow he knows, subconsciously even..

And he shoots me a text that is so heartwarming..

or tells me just what I need to hear that creates a shift.

That was last night..

Just when I needed it.

Thank you babe!

I love you.

Now I know we are not here to depend on others to feel good about ourselves, but I do believe that there is such wonderfulness in community...

Partnership..

And when we are down sometimes, it's nice to have someone

shoot us a little extra love..

This reminds me of one of my previous posts,

The Crystal Project

http://natobottoart.blogspot.com/2010/05/crystal-project.html

This all makes me think about how important it is

to be kind and follow your heart.

If you are walking into the supermarket or where ever and you feel inspired to smile and say hello to some random person..

Do so...

You never know, it just may brighten up their whole day..

It shows them that someone cares..

That one person could be feeling just how I was or how you may have been feeling the other day and that smile of kindness

is like magic.

I know I am getting all sappy here but this is important to me.

Being kind to one another is important to all of us.

Anyway...

Have a beautiful weekend :)