It's Monday, Adjustment day.
This day of the week seems to get more difficult for Indie as he grows. As I leave the room to start the day he screams for me...
My heart aches..
I wish I could be Mommy and Artist simultaneously.
Sharing giggles, exploring, creating, doing the business all together.
But here I am walking away up the stairs, feeling sad.
I love the little guy so much and as much as our Nanny is great to Indie, he still wants to be with me, and I with him.
Some days I question...
Should I be doing this artsy business thing?
He grows so fast, am I missing out...
What if he is my last baby and I am just creating it all away while he grows. :( I am grateful for the gentle voice in my heart.
"it's ok you are doing your best"
"You are following your heart, you are meant to spread this love, your art" "And you are meant to be a mom too"
You are doing your best and that is all you can do and you are doing
But still, my heart aches sometimes, when I hear him screaming on these Mondays. I am grateful I have a nanny so I can be close to him whenever I want, or when he wants me "bad" too :)
Today he napped in my studio in his little bouncy hammock that his Gramma Pat got for him. He Loved it and slept very well..
Even awoke with little coo's instead of a scream.
He was grateful and so was I.
I love you Indie,
I love you kids,
I hope you know that.
I have intermixed a few new items that will be going in the shop this week of the many new things I have to share..I hope you stop by :)
Thank you and have a great day:)