Wow!

I love the connection we all can find in people we meet or have just seen and read about. All the things we learn from each other, helping us on our way, encouraging our freedom even further.

So many of us have been molded (not always purposely) into someone we are not, and we find ourselves fighting against this energy that is not our own, even sometimes thinking there is something wrong with us..WHEN in actuality it's just our insides tugging at us, letting us know that maybe something isn't right, some part that was "given" to us that doesn't fit into our journey.

Hope this makes sense.

I used to get angry really easy, pissed off, especially when certain people did things that just weren't nice. It was there lack of niceness in handling situations that just set me off and you know what?

That didn't make me any better than the person who was being mean..It just added to it.

I have ALWAYS been sensitive to any kind of meanness, picking on, bullying, etc. and yet when I was little I can admit that there were times that I picked on people, usually because they, again, pissed me off or I felt threatened.

I did NOT learn the best coping skills other than if someone pushes you around enough then you should stick up for yourself and push back and give them a bit of their own medicine.

No! No! No!

Every time I ever experienced any type of confrontation I ALWAYS felt horrible afterwards. "Why did happen?" I asked myself..

This is not want I want, all I want is to be surrounded by people I could play with and loved, but yet it didn't always work that way.

Our home life can have the hugest impact on who we are.

I am very grateful for the little voice that shined through the negativity that at times surrounded my life, reminding me of who I am (not always with the best detail, lol, but a lot of love and joy)

Always wanting to see the best in people and situations which at

times was confronted with someone only seeing the negative and reminding me of that, planting seeds that I really didn't want to grow. Then followed by comments like "you gotta watch your back, you can't trust people, your being naive.

I felt so conflicted! What the fuck, I just wanna have fun, love people, grow, create the life I want. I don't want to focus on all that other shit..

I met some really great people in high school that totally made a difference in my life. My ex-boyfriend Matt, who was very intelligent, sporty, focused, encouraging and a loving soul. His parents were very good people and raised great young men.

Matt, helped me tremendously in High School. I looked up to his achievements and it sparked something inside me to try harder in school and love myself. He is/was a truly kind person and am Very grateful to have met him.

(I made this for my honey Sekou, I love you babe!)

Reminds me of that poem that went around the internet a while back, heck may still be traveling it for all I know, because its a good one..The one that pertains to "there are some people you meet in life and are friends for a season...Some for a lifetime..etc..know that one? Anyways..I totally click with it.

Jumping...

Alex, he sparked my spirituality curiosities which through my desire to learn more through Matt lead me on that adventure and I have been there ever since. Bridgett, she is/was my total "dreamer/inventor/encouraging/giggle buddy..

Wendy, "Mom", she nurtured me, calmed me and we had A LOT of fun adventures and laughs.

Kim, it was through seeing how she used her creativity to support herself, through following her heart, that lead me to doing the same, and we too had a lot of laughs.

And now...the Universe has lead me to so many wonderful new and positive people in my life, people of like mind.

All because I am following my heart!

I feel at home in their positivity.

Sekou, Genie, Julie, LOVE you!

I am grateful.

Love

Me

PS. Please check out Kelly Rae Roberts latest post...It's a good inspiring one, well they all are but I really liked this one :)

What Does your Heart Say?

First I'd like to wish a Happy Birthday to my two oldest children..

Luke who just turned 16, oh my, and Ava who turned 14.

I love you both sooo much and wish you the best in all your life adventures. I am here for you always..Love Love Love and hugs!

My heart says I am totally grateful..

I know I repeat this phrase often but I find it to be of the utmost necessity to give thanks for all that that surrounds me and all that I am :)

I am surrounded by such wonderful friends and family that it makes me want to explode with hearty glitter sparkles.

Indie is growing so fast and every moment with him I am in awe of his spirit, being here with us.

I kiss him up, lots of sniffing his yummy baby scent..

He's beginning to mimic basic words we say and can babble up such a story.

Everyday I try to focus on our children understanding why we "work" (for me it feels like play). That they understand that we are following our passions and being loving parents too.

If I don't focus on that thought, sometimes my mind can wander to feeling like I am choosing to make art/run a business over being a parent and that I should just be with them.

It is my desire to keep the balance.

Lately I have been thinking more about community.

How can I be involved yet keeping to what I love to do, because that is when the energy I give the strongest, most beneficial.

I was thinking of going around the neighborhood, introducing myself (I know some of my neighbors names but...we all have our separate lives) Thinking of giving one of my business cards to each of them and letting them know that if there is anyway I can be of

service, as part of our community, using the skills that come from following my heart, to please call me..I would love to help :)

If I can make art and donate pieces to help raise money for specific events and such...If I can do some gardening for our neighborhood (love to dig, rake, wheelbarrow, plant flowers)

Design a logo or such for not for profits and so on and so forth.

I would like to be of service doing what I love.

I think it sets a great example for our children.

Sidetrack..My Iphone was out of commission last week, got it back Friday the third, Ava's birthday :)

Anyways..the day the screen froze on it (white screen of death) the phone for some reason took a picture of the last way the screen looked, exactly with time and date that it failed..

Peculiar...I was messaged by the loving voice in my space, to look up the numbers in the Angel Number book by Doreen Virtue..

AMAZING MESSAGE!

time 8:46 5/29/2011

8) Abundance and prosperity..Infinite flow of money time ideas or whatever else you require (especially for your life purpose)

46) The angels are saying to you: "keep your thoughts focused upon your spiritual self and your divine source for everything. Give any material worries to us"

5)A significant change is occurring, always for the better. It's a good idea to call upon heaven for help with life changes. :)

29) Stay positive about your life purpose, put all your focus on being of service, utilizing your natural talents, passions and interests. Doors are opening for you..Just keep your faith strong.

YES!

2011) Your connection with the creator is strong and clear. Fill your heart and mind with faith, stay positive, your thoughts are materializing rapidly...Focus only on the good within yourself, others, and the present.

If you ever find yourself seeing a repetitive number, or a number that just makes you think hmmm...The Angel numbers book is a fun, loving tool to have.

Ooooo and I got my new tent. I Love it!! Can't wait to fill it with creations!!!

I got this lovely tent through Flourish

and I couldn't be happier with their service AND products.

Their customer service it EXCELLENT!

They even sent me this amazingly helpful book "Art Festival Guide" written by Artist Maria Arango

The book is an extremely useful guide,

"A book for all brave Artist's who embark on the treacherous and most wonderful adventure of selling their art in art festivals and generally to the public"

Thank you Luke, for including that in my order..It is greatly appreciated :)

have a great day all and hugs..Pass it on :)

Weekend of Boogies and Bookshelves :)

I have been a busy Bee :)

To bring you all up to date I have been doing the following:

1. Helping a friend do a remodel on her Brand Newly owned Bookstore

called Afterwords Books.

It's located in Edwardsville, IL.

I am soooo excited about the grand re-opening that will be held on Wednesday June 1st. and until then I am focusing on service.

I am very happy for Lu Lu and I wish her all the best in the world!!

And most of all I congratulate her for totally following her heart!

I am very grateful to have lend a hand in the decorative painting and creative design realm..AND..Am excited to have a wonderful new place to display my work, especially being the new line of Journals,

bookmarks and notecards that are coming soon!

It's going to be an awesome sight for current customers and all the new ones it will acquire.

2. I have been battling a freaking COLD!!! What the heck..I have not gotten one of these bad boys in a long time. This one especially sucks and the little one caught it too :(

IT just totally creeped up on my over night and hit hard..poop

Cold, it's time for your departure!

3. I don't know how many of you are aware of this because I spaced (cold, bookstore, getting ready for Kelly Rae Blog Sponsorship)

doing a blog entry on this, but...

I had a fund raising drive on Friday where 100% of proceeds from sold jewelry items in my shop were donated to the Red Cross..

At the end 240.00 was raised and I donated it last night and boy did that feel good :)

thank you Everyone!

4. Silly but cute, I had this idea to make a Mommy Daddy Doll for

Indie.

He has been having a bit of separation anxiety lately and I figured that maybe if he had a doll with a picture of us on it he might

feel a little better.. I also infused it with Lavender..

The image you will see is just my first attempt

(actually Genie and I sewed it)

I plan on making another with a better head and a little thicker body. What do you think of the idea?I think it would be great for

babies who miss their mommies and

daddies too!

Genie brought up that she thought that it would be a great doll for people in the military or parents who leave for business trips days at a time. Your comments are greatly appreciated..

I hope you all have a great day, sniff, hack, sneeze :)

Peace!

Short and Sweet

I am Grateful

and I am Focused.

I am really trying to learn some new things and finish art too so

please excuse my blogging absence.

Peace to you all and..

much love :)

Natalie Kelsey

And They're Off

Good Day all!

Fo all of you lucky winners I wanted to say that

your giftie-poo's are on their way

so be ready to receive the

LOVE

Because they are jam packed with it :)

I had so much fun packaging up your goodies

and I want you to know that I advise taking you time to open them

because some of the packages have hidden

messages, surprises and etc. in them.

:)

Thank you for playing and I hope you come by again.

TOday I am making some new pendants..

Some..

"Just fucking do it"

and

"Trust the process"

THEY LOOK AMAZING.

Really..

I'm not being biased because I created them,

they really are pretty nifty :)

The last batch I made was my first attempt so I'm growing and getting better at it.

Hopefully I'll have them in the shop soon or have some pictures to share..

I also came up with a new process of making the pendants today..

I am getting ready to try it out so stay tuned..

There might be a instructional posting in the

future..

For now..Have a fantastic weekend!

Ok so...I'm allllmoossstt done with this one...

whatcha think?

I am loving it..

I appreciated the comments in my last post, thank you.

Got me to thinking..

so here I am typin'.

One of the comments had to do with honesty.

If I am focusing only on what I want, that is the most honest I can be with myself,

while being a positive influence on others..

I have my ups and downs some I'll share,

some I'll burn up and scatter amongst the Universe with intention of it being turned into love, and me having learned yet another lesson:)

There is enough shit in this world going on elsewhere

I want to change that.

Even if it's in my own little world.

I Like happy, it feels sooo good :)

I won't do this often,

heck this may be the one time,

maybe not :)

While I am in a good

GOOD place now..

I haven't always been.

Some of us didn't learn any better, but in me I always knew there was something more, a more happy cheerful world

to live in.

So I did my best to find it.

I went through obstacles, construction, destruction,

yelling, screaming, fighting, crying

uncomfortable living

learning all the way

Growing..

Until one day I heard a voice loud and clear.

and I FULLY listened to it.

More than I ever had before.

And it was uncomfortable, but comfortable at the same time.

Because deep down I knew this was it..

this was that world I was looking for and the only way I was gonna get there is if I listened.

And it said....

Follow your heart!

So FUCK!.....

Please,

all of you out there bitching and complaining,

like I once was (still can sometimes, giggle)

about how you life isn't how you want it to be,

"What you think you become" Buddha

Get some Q-tips and clean your ears, close your eyes, ask and...

Listen

Everything you'll ever need to know resides in your heart, you just have to connect to it, joyfully.

My art is my tool, my heart, my soul.

It helps me focus on what I want, through it I share what I want to focus on, Love, Joy, Peace.

Although I may at times be out there with my creations, it helps me stay grounded in

LOVE.

This is what I want to share with the world.

I want everyone to know that like John Lennon said

"All we need is love"

If my art can be a tool for any of you out there,

to help bring you to connect with your heart and follow it

with FAITH so that you may

Plant your seed, no matter what it may be..

Just Be..

Trusting the process, no matter how painful it might seem to get there,

knowing that Faith is the catalyst of possibilities and they are infinite, but...

Your heart is your compass, and if you follow it

you'll always see, know, feel your path..

So...

What does your heart say?

Deep Breath

It's Monday, Adjustment day.

This day of the week seems to get more difficult for Indie as he grows. As I leave the room to start the day he screams for me...

My heart aches..

I wish I could be Mommy and Artist simultaneously.

Sharing giggles, exploring, creating, doing the business all together.

But here I am walking away up the stairs, feeling sad.

I love the little guy so much and as much as our Nanny is great to Indie, he still wants to be with me, and I with him.

Some days I question...

Should I be doing this artsy business thing?

He grows so fast, am I missing out...

What if he is my last baby and I am just creating it all away while he grows. :( I am grateful for the gentle voice in my heart.

"it's ok you are doing your best"

"You are following your heart, you are meant to spread this love, your art" "And you are meant to be a mom too"

You are doing your best and that is all you can do and you are doing

it beautifully"

But still, my heart aches sometimes, when I hear him screaming on these Mondays. I am grateful I have a nanny so I can be close to him whenever I want, or when he wants me "bad" too :)

Today he napped in my studio in his little bouncy hammock that his Gramma Pat got for him. He Loved it and slept very well..

Even awoke with little coo's instead of a scream.

He was grateful and so was I.

I love you Indie,

I love you kids,

I hope you know that.

I have intermixed a few new items that will be going in the shop this week of the many new things I have to share..I hope you stop by :)

Thank you and have a great day:)